My 35th birthday

I celebrated my birthday with Buboy last weekend. We booked a room at Holiday Inn Galleria and spent Saturday night there. We didn’t have dinner Saturday night because we had a late lunch of steak but we bought a pint of ice cream, chips and soda for some night snack while watching TV. The next day, we celebrated Mass at the Edsa Shrine after a late buffet breakfast at the hotel then had steak again for late lunch at Chilli's. The food trip alone made up for the fact that I had my period that weekend. It was nice, spending the weekend with just the two of us. We had a corner room with two full glass walls. The bed was a bit springy at first but really comfy and I love the pillows. We’re thinking of doing it again next month.

However, the pounds I lost through jogging were instantly back after that weekend. I cannot believe how fast my weight bounced back. I didn’t have a weigh-in before I started jogging, but I noticed some changes in my middle part after several sessions. However, I couldn’t be disappointed about a nice, relaxing weekend, can I? At least it proves that jogging really makes a difference for me. I jogged again last Wednesday and I’m supposed to again tonight, but it’s currently raining. I don’t know how long this rain would last. The weather these days can really be confusing.

-chebong

electronic books

I recently discovered ebooks. Actually, I have a couple of ebooks since last year but I can’t bring myself to read them. I feel it’ll strain my eyes or something. I even printed the whole 182 pages of Good Omens so that I can read it comfortably. Last weekend I downloaded a copy of Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince because for once I wanted to read the book first before I watch it on film. I was actually planning of printing it chapter by chapter but when I started reading it via my pc (in the office) I realized it wasn’t so hard after all. I guess all those net surfing paid off, my eyes can stare at the monitor reading articles for hours.

Thing is I got really excited that I downloaded the complete Harry Potter series (I only read The Goblet of Fire and only because my sister Weng got a free copy from a book fair) and the Twilight series. I guess I’m too cheap to buy the books, he.he. And since Buboy is again working from home, he has his own pc and I can use our pc by myself (to read or watch films) when I’m home. Also, I can read some even at the office when things are not so busy. My appreciation to this age’s technology has just gone up a notch.

-chebong

Running in circles

Today will be my 4th run session. I can’t believe that I actually enjoyed running and walking after work. I know I said I was excited, but still, I was half expecting that I’ll give up after a couple of sessions. Probably it’s because I do it on my own - no trainer, I always run with a friend (except today but it's okay), and it lessens my guilt over eating binges with Buboy during weekends.

Although I’m having fun with my new found activity, I have other things in my mind right now. I’m a bit worried about the traces of blood that I have noticed with my discharge. It’s not every day that I see it, and God knows I keep a watchful eye on that one. I think it’s happened four or five times already in the past two to three weeks. At first I thought it’s just a sign that my period is coming, but it hasn’t come until now. I’m scared that something might be wrong with me down there.. again.

Then of course, the silly me is hoping that the blood-stained discharge might be a sign of pregnancy. So I bought a pregnancy test. The result is negative. And I wonder why I feel so bad when deep inside I know what the test would say even before i had it.

God I hate this! I feel like I’m running in circles and I don’t know how and when to stop.

-chebong

time to do some exercise

Buboy plays basketball with his officemates every Friday. I encourage him because I know the exercise is good for him plus he gets some time with the boys. I need some exercise too, not only because I have to do something while I wait for him on Fridays, but because I’m getting bigger every day. And so last weekend I bought my first rubber (running) shoes in 15 years. I plan to run around the park near our office every Friday… and maybe a bit more often when I get the hang of it.

I did some research on jogging/running and found out that I can burn about 350 calories by running for 30 minutes (hey, i'm not in too much hurry to be rid of all my flabÜ). However, it is not advisable for someone like me to immediately start running. I’ll have to start with intervals of walking, brisk walking, and running. Then of course there’s some stretching I need to do before and after each run. I think I’ll need to really do that so that my body won’t go into too much shock when I start this activity. I can still recall how sore my body was after that caving and hiking thing we did in Sagada a few months ago… argh!

Friday is a good day to start. I can stay in bed the whole day next day should my body beg me to. I’m excited! I just hope this excitement will last long enough for me see some results.. some 20 pound results I hope!

-chebong

Baby blues

Yesterday Buboy and I went to attend the dedication of Kian, Allan and Susan’s baby. Allan is one of Buboy’s friends from college. I was excited to go, not only because Allan has been a good friend of mine too, but because his baby was so cute the last we saw him at Francis’ baby’s christening last year.

We arrived at the venue a little early and went outside to wait. Then Ritchie and Sherrie came and we girls chatted while the boys did the same in the other corner. After a few how are you’s, Sherrie broke the news that she’s already 4 months pregnant. I got really excited and happy for her and I know she actually saw it. Then Nhey and Arlyn came with their daughter Julliene. I noticed that Arlyn is getting bigger and I was later informed that she’s 5 months pregnant with their 2nd baby. I was still okay that time and still happy for the two moms sitting beside me. However, when we were all seated down inside and the ninongs were called to seat in front that I began to feel depressed. Nhey said he’s not a ninong because Allan is already the ninong of their first child and according to superstitions it’s not good. It dawned on me that Buboy is the ninong of all his closest friends from college’s first child. Who will he get to be the ninong when we finally have our baby?

Then during the dedication ceremony, Allan and Susan offered a prayer and they said something like thank you Lord for entrusting us to nurture a life. Big time sadness hits me again. I wonder why God would not trust me to nurture another life. Can’t I do it? Tears started to line my eyes. It hurt so much to push them back so no one would notice. We ended up going earlier than the rest of Buboy’s friends.

I thought I was over this. I thought I have already accepted that God might have other plans for us. I thought wrong...

-chebong