Several days ago my husband laid out an option that he wants me to think about... going abroad. I readily answered him that i will go with him wherever he wants to go, i just want us together. He said i ought to think about it first before i give a definite answer. He pointed out that there are a lot of things i have to consider like my family, especially now that tatay is not getting better.
I have been thinking about it. And with my declining interest in my current job, i am seriously considering it. Though of course Buboy is correct, i should consider other things that we will leave behind, not only my work.
Some of the reasons why i hesitate to move are:
1. i am afraid of being away from our family especially with the health status of both of our parents, the emotional stability of my brother, the fact that mama & papa will be left alone, and the overall support (emotional, presence, financial sometimes, etc.) that we give our families
2. i am not certain of what will happen to us there (wherever it may be) and it somehow scares me; i am not sure if i will be successful somewhere else
3. i want to hold onto the dreams we started for here, the lot we're paying, the house we'll build, etc.
4. i am scared to live without household help (yes, this one is too shallow even for me).
But just knowing that Buboy will be beside me is a very big reassurance already. I mean, we've been through a lot since we got together and i know that we will be able to pass through anything together. He is my source of strength and i hope i am able to do the same for him.
So am i ready? I don't think i'll ever be completely ready. But given a chance, i will take on the opportunity of taking on a new adventure, in a new place with my Buboy. Afterall, life is all about change, and since i want to live my life, i should be ready to embrace change. I am sure we'll make it wharever God places us... together.
-chebong
I have been thinking about it. And with my declining interest in my current job, i am seriously considering it. Though of course Buboy is correct, i should consider other things that we will leave behind, not only my work.
Some of the reasons why i hesitate to move are:
1. i am afraid of being away from our family especially with the health status of both of our parents, the emotional stability of my brother, the fact that mama & papa will be left alone, and the overall support (emotional, presence, financial sometimes, etc.) that we give our families
2. i am not certain of what will happen to us there (wherever it may be) and it somehow scares me; i am not sure if i will be successful somewhere else
3. i want to hold onto the dreams we started for here, the lot we're paying, the house we'll build, etc.
4. i am scared to live without household help (yes, this one is too shallow even for me).
But just knowing that Buboy will be beside me is a very big reassurance already. I mean, we've been through a lot since we got together and i know that we will be able to pass through anything together. He is my source of strength and i hope i am able to do the same for him.
So am i ready? I don't think i'll ever be completely ready. But given a chance, i will take on the opportunity of taking on a new adventure, in a new place with my Buboy. Afterall, life is all about change, and since i want to live my life, i should be ready to embrace change. I am sure we'll make it wharever God places us... together.
-chebong
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